I found that after visiting Beihei and Weizhou island, dealing with the past patterns, I am much happier and can express and talk more than I did. Since I was 4 years old I have not wanted to talk to my family and other people.It was as though my mouth was sealed by a zipper. I tried not to get close to people. When I did, I felt very scared and nervous. By thinking back all these 44 years of my life, I never felt happy, and my heart truly was stiff and solid. Now it seems that everything flows much better, so all the fear and nervousness has reduced a lot and now I feel light hearted and happier and calmer.